Day 50: Being Touched for the First Time Since

I wait for her in the bright, cool room
for maybe ten minutes
and wonder if I could hug her
 
Tears slide between my mask and cheek
and the emotion surprises me
but it’s been seven weeks
since anybody
since face to face
since in the same room
 
She comes in masked but not gloved
fingers warm on my pulse
stethoscope cool on my chest
She doesn’t hurry
gives me full attention
wants to know how I am
 
I tell her some of the truth
but I can’t bring myself to ask
for what I need most
 
Not safe for her
not safe for me

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