The First Sleepless Night

Woke at four
Fear riding my bones
Two of my companions slept on
One at my flank
The other her nose
Buried in my shoulder
Her motor running
I lay in the dark
In my quiet bed
Scanning the night
Scanning my body
Wondering if
These are our last days
My last days
Sleep was done
In that way we just know
I made tea
Lit a candle
Asked Alexa to play Bill Douglas
“Peace of the quiet stars to you”
To loosen the scare
Coating my skin
Let me catch
A full breath of peace
A sip of tea
Let me send love
To those held in my heart
Jill Kelly
March 17, 2020